Thank You So Much For Everything

Thank you so much for everything, I love you

You’ve pushed me to the point of perfection, I trust you

Through middle and high school, inside and out

I excelled in everything to make you proud

I needed your approval to keep the house sane

No one got yelled at if I got an A

And if I did the dishes that peace would remain

Day in, day out, such a sick game

As I grew older, I grew very confused

I based my choices off what you’d want me to do

My college decision wasn’t even mine

Shit, no wonder I didn’t have that great a time

The degree gets me far, you were right about the name

But that’s all it will ever be to me, such a shame

But you said you could pay 

Fucking 70K

I couldn’t turn that away

And I’m grateful everyday

Thank you so much for everything, I love you

And words can’t describe how much I trust you 

But I have to admit, that trust is wearing thin

Because you fail to acknowledge who I am within

You claim it’s okay for me to not know

But once I admit that you steer me to go

In whatever direction YOU decide

Without giving me a moment to ponder and ask why

And when I get to the point of figuring shit out 

You lack understanding and shut me down

I’m tired of trying to explain my vision

To people that hear me but don’t wanna listen

You “support me 100%” you claim

When deep inside it needs to be your way

You try to hide it

You try to subside it

You try to deny it

And I’m affected by it

Thank you so much for everything, I love you

You’ve taught me so much along the way I trust you

But I’m 22 now with a mind of my own

So don’t get offended when I start to let go

You’ve created a woman overwhelmed with emotion

Resilient enough to brave the currents of the ocean

You fuel my self doubt, you keep me so timid

Because I continue to consider your thoughts and feelings

Thank you so much for everything, I love you

But I need space and room to trust myself too

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