Thank You So Much For Everything
Thank you so much for everything, I love you
You’ve pushed me to the point of perfection, I trust you
Through middle and high school, inside and out
I excelled in everything to make you proud
I needed your approval to keep the house sane
No one got yelled at if I got an A
And if I did the dishes that peace would remain
Day in, day out, such a sick game
As I grew older, I grew very confused
I based my choices off what you’d want me to do
My college decision wasn’t even mine
Shit, no wonder I didn’t have that great a time
The degree gets me far, you were right about the name
But that’s all it will ever be to me, such a shame
But you said you could pay
Fucking 70K
I couldn’t turn that away
And I’m grateful everyday
Thank you so much for everything, I love you
And words can’t describe how much I trust you
But I have to admit, that trust is wearing thin
Because you fail to acknowledge who I am within
You claim it’s okay for me to not know
But once I admit that you steer me to go
In whatever direction YOU decide
Without giving me a moment to ponder and ask why
And when I get to the point of figuring shit out
You lack understanding and shut me down
I’m tired of trying to explain my vision
To people that hear me but don’t wanna listen
You “support me 100%” you claim
When deep inside it needs to be your way
You try to hide it
You try to subside it
You try to deny it
And I’m affected by it
Thank you so much for everything, I love you
You’ve taught me so much along the way I trust you
But I’m 22 now with a mind of my own
So don’t get offended when I start to let go
You’ve created a woman overwhelmed with emotion
Resilient enough to brave the currents of the ocean
You fuel my self doubt, you keep me so timid
Because I continue to consider your thoughts and feelings
Thank you so much for everything, I love you
But I need space and room to trust myself too