Homeless
Why did I leave home?
The one place I called my own
Where my heart never felt bitter or cold
And no one feels old
Or weak or simple or bleak
Or stale or akey I never felt shaky
My foundation so strong
No one can break me
But 15 years, almost all of my life
I stayed in my house, my shelter, my light
and at 18 years old you’re supposed to move on
Find a new house, find a new song
To dance to and sway to and hit a new beat
And you’d think any beat would make one complete
But the beat that I had was so unique and pure
No sorority or club could ever be more
Than the euphoric pressure my home used to give me
Unsettled at times, but shit came so easy
And I’m sitting in Spanish discussing what I ate
But the only language I know is 5,6,7,8
Tattooed near my ankle, the counts before go
Lights on, it’s time for the show
As I engage the crowd everybody says, “wow
Look at her go, the star of the show”
Why’d I hang up my shoes and turn off the lights
I’m hurting I’m hurting and only I know why
i gave up the love of my life so fast
I thought my glory years had passed
I thought I didn’t need it
I really believed it
I really believed I could survive without it
But without the mirror or Marley or barre,
Who the fuck am I? Am I still a star?
I lost myself when I threw out the key
To the most important part of me
I’m paying rent in temporary spaces
To fill the void being homeless created
I’m strong enough to find a way
To get through this sadness everyday
But i just wanna travel back in time, alone
To camp out for a night in my old home